Bad Day, Long Day

Saturday was not a good day.  I was anxious most of the day, but I did my knee exercises in the morning.  I called Rob and we went for a full walk on the Tom’s Creek Trail.  Rob was optimistic about the prograf but I told him that I have been sick for over a year and that his moments of optimism have not fully panned out.  Initially he said that with the cellcept that I would be so much better in 6 weeks and that didn’t happen, then I did finally get better after the 4^th chemo with Cytoxin but that fell apart around three weeks ago, when Trivedi put me on the prograf along with an increase of the prednisone to 20 mg from my 12 and 1/2.  That has really added to my anxiety and I am hoping that this week’s blood test (still no results from last Tuesday) will show some improvement.  I did try to go to confession but it was so crowded and the younger people simply got ahead of me that I decided to pass for today.  I ended up taking 2 halves of valium throughout the rest of the day.  I am back to where if I don’t wake up in the morning that will be fine with me.  I did take a bike ride at VT in the Perry street garage going up 12 ramps which is a good ride overall. 

 Sunday was a long but pretty good day.  I go to rehearsal at 10:00 (having little desire to do that) and then I sang for the 11:30 mass and I did pretty well.  I was pretty scattered but Betty Anne helped me out and that calmed me quite a bit.  I was really hoping that my kayak friend would cancel but that didn’t work out so I met her at around 1 and we headed over to Dudley’s landing and got ready for out trip.  Unfortunately, the valve in the floor of my boat was not working so I had to sit in a lot more water than I usually do.  I got cold about halfway through, as did my kayak friend, but we kept paddling and we both thought it was a decent trip.  It felt so good to pack up our gear and warm up in my truck.  After dropping her off, I changed into dry clothes, drove to Jimmy John’s for a sandwich and then headed to my office for a nap.  My breathing wasn’t very good and I hope I don’t get a cold.  After I woke up I got the money to Holly for the party and the housekeeper and finally filed some of my documents.  I ended up leaving around 7:30 and got back to my apartment around 8:15, resting on the couch and checking some of the songs for tomorrow’s mercy mass.  I was able to clean my saucepan with boiled baking soda (an idea I got online) so that will save me 20 dollars or so.  I also had a big dish of steamed vegetables at 9:30 so I could take my Eliquis and my Prograf.  I am not sure if I will do my weights and yoga since I did so much paddling today to stay warm.